I am trying desperately to study for my midterm exam in the class I'm failing, which is tomorrow morning. I have been eating a lot...and it sucks. I thought it would help me concentrate, but an empty stomach is the only way to focus because I am in control then. Now it's like all my blood is going to my stomach, it literally has a pulse. Gross. I can't show myself this weekend because I feel so fat. As soon as my midterm is over, I am returning to the therapist I met last week, then I have to catch up on schoolwork. Then 5 hours in the gym for me. Yay... I am going to ask the therapist to help me stop binging... because it is making me fail. I know it's my fault. But the food makes my head spin, like there is a war going on in there.
I can't wait to read blogs tomorrow night, but for now I have to have to have to study.
xoxo
Yeah, sometimes my head is way more clear when I don't eat. I think we fool ourselves into thinking "I'll have energy if I eat" but really, we'd have to be eating normally for a long time before our energy comes back. <3
ReplyDeleteyou'll be okay. just focus on your school, that's important too. You can get back on track. Keep it up.
Stay Superstrong <3
-Molly
You will get through it!!! Seems as though we kind of have the same sort of stress about school :( We can do it!! haha. Just have to focus :) xx
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