I ate today and everything was going according to plan till I ate some damn Salami. WHAT? I don't even LIKE meat! I HATE MEAT! But the salt made me crazy so I binged. Shit! I feel so dirty. The iron in it will help me get my period probably. I think it has iron.
Alright so it is so much easier to fast than to restrict calories sometimes. Yes so I feel dirty and heavy and full and the worst. On top of it all, I have freaking pizza sauce on my pants. I am out of control. The dining services people kept walking past me eating alone at an awkward hour, stuffing my face. I could tell they were just like, that girl must be bulimic. I'm not! Fuck.
At least tomorrow is a fasting day, so between yesterday's fast/workout and that, I can even (nooo I wanna be negative) this out. But for now, I'm going to the gym. It's 5 PM just about here, and here is my gym plan (which I will start once my iPod finishes charging):
Walk to gym. (10 minute walk so negligible)
1 hour toning in the weight room (-180ish calories).
2 hours on elliptical and/or stationary bike, intervals (somewhere between 600-900 calories)
1 hour POWER ABS class (this class is SO MUCH FUN at my school! Very intense! Soreness guaranteed!) (maybe 200-300 calories)
1-2 hour power walk (300-500 calories)
That should be good.
Tomorrow I don't have classes so tonight I'll just watch gossip girl and stretch (hopefully burn more while stretching). Tomorrow is another fasting day so this should even out but dammit I hate not being calorie deficient. I think I'm like exercise bulimic not ana. This is weird, because I always found straight-up bulimia to be a sign of weakness. Shit. Time to lose some weight.
Wow your exercise is amazing... I probs couldn't do that!!!! Good luck with that love xx
ReplyDeletePlease be careful doing all that exercise while fasting. Maybe a moderate intake daily would stop binges? All the best xxx
ReplyDeleteDon't over exercise whilst fasting! You could do more damage then good, just be careful :( And if you feel faint from it, just eat a little sugary substance to boost you :) Stay safe! xx
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